Rant on Holidays
I am in the midst of a serious conflict. I told the family from hell that we would be up for thanksgiving. Now I'm having second, third and fourth thoughts.
Last year when we were up for xmas, the first thing out of both my grandmother and my father's mouth was "gee, you've gotten FAT." Thanks folks. That set the tone for the entire holiday. Now, my grandmother is old, and is starting to have heart problems. Seeing her would be good, since we never know when the last time is going to be. But she's just SO evil sometimes. My daughter would likely love to see her, since she hasn't seen most of the evil. But at the same time, I'm not sure if I want to expose her to the nonsense again. This is a woman who gives back presents saying stuff like, "I don't need that, you must have liked it because you bought it. You take it back with you." Or, in front of my daughter, "you have NO idea how to bring up children. You just leave her alone" after I told her to be more careful with the old things my grandmother brought her to play with and she'd ripped one.
Seeing my sister and brother in law is good. Seeing my parents is partially good and partially very annoying. The whole trip itself is a pain in the butt. I haven't flown in ages, and I am required to go and take the airplane around the pattern a few times before taking any passengers. So I would have to do this before taking anyone anywhere if we DO go. But it just seems like such an insurmountable bother. I'm having trouble getting off my butt and actually DOING it. I keep finding excuses. *argh*